I Just Don't Know

I JUST DON’T KNOW!

By Wade Martin Hughes, Sr. Kyfingers@aol.com (YouTube: Wade Hughes) (Several part lesson)

I had been pastoring several months. I was crushed beyond crushing. I prayed and prayed. I prayed at home. I prayed at church. I asked people to pray for me. I came home and put the phone in my lap. I asked God to please let someone call and encourage me. The phone never rang. I was crushed. I did not think I could go another step. I did not want my wife to know my deep hurt. I went outside and started walking. I was weeping uncontrollably. I walked down the middle of the street. The enemy told me what a failure I was. I could not understand why no one could see the sacrifices I had made? To top it all off as I was walking it started pouring down the rain. It was late at night. The rain hid my tears. God, I don’t know! I just don’t know? After several miles of walking I decided to turn around. I asked Linda did anyone call? No, was the answer. This dark valley was a severe test. I DON’T KNOW GOD! I don’t know if I can make it? I don’t know what is going on? God could you explain it to me? The silence was deafening. Finally the sun came up. A little bird peered in the window. I said tell me bird. The bird just sat there. I said: BIRD, I DON’T KNOW? Then I heard the small still voice in my heart say: YOU DON’T NEED TO KNOW, JUST TRUST ME! Well, my friends that was not the answer I was looking to hear. 45 years later: I STILL DON’T KNOW? The LESSON I HAVE LEARNED IS SIMPLE: YOU DON’T NEED TO KNOW, JUST BY FAIITH TRUST GOD’S PLAN.

I STILL DON’T KNOW? TODAY I OPENED THE MAIL BOX AND THERE WAS A CARD FROM A NAME I NEVER RECOGNIZED.

The card was from ANDRA POFFENBARGER. Someone that knew me from my school teaching days at Rose Hill, Lee County, Virginia. This was 50+ years ago. She had heard about my battle with cancer and how I am doing better. To be honest, I STILL DON’T KNOW, BUT I AM LEARNING TO TRUST GOD’S PLAN. This verse was in the card.

Psalm 73:28 But it is good for me to draw near to God: I have put my trust in the Lord GOD, that I may declare all thy works.

Psalm 73:28 (MSG) But I'm in the very presence of God— oh, how refreshing it is! I've made Lord GOD my home. God, I'm telling the world what you do!

THE CARD SAID: THE LORD IS WITH YOU. HE WALKED WITH YOU BEFORE: HE CARRIES YOU NOW.

Wow, I have not heard from Andra in 50 years. Today I was preparing for this lesson: I DON’T KNOW, and this card is in my mail box. God walked with me before: He carries me now! I still don’t know, but by faith I trust him. I have never been able to put the puzzle together, but I know in whom I have believed.

2 Timothy 1:12 For the which cause I also suffer these things: nevertheless I am not ashamed: for I know whom I have believed, and am persuaded that he is able to keep that which I have committed unto him against that day.

I DON’T KNOW? I JUST DON’T KNOW? HOW CAN YOU HIDE A BABY?

Exodus 1:22 And Pharaoh charged all his people, saying, Every son that is born ye shall cast into the river, and every daughter ye shall save alive.

I DON’T KNOW? I DON’T KNOW HOW A BABY CAN LIVE IN A BASKET FLOATINNG IN THE NILE RIVER?

I DON’T KNOW HOW WE CAN EDUCATE, TRAIN AND DISCIPLINE THIS FUTURE LEADER?

Exodus 2:10 And the child grew, and she brought him unto Pharaoh's daughter, and he became her son. And she called his name Moses: and she said, Because I drew him out of the water.

I DON’T KNOW? I DON’T KNOW HOW WE CAN GET THIS MAN TO RECOGNIZE GOD’S CALL AND TAKE HIS SHOES OFF? HERE MOSES IS LIVING IN THE DESERT --- HOW WILL WE GET HIM TO LISTEN?

Exodus 3:2 And the angel of the LORD appeared unto him in a flame of fire out of the midst of a bush: and he looked, and, behold, the bush burned with fire, and the bush was not consumed. 3 And Moses said, I will now turn aside, and see this great sight, why the bush is not burnt. 4 And when the LORD saw that he turned aside to see, God called unto him out of the midst of the bush, and said, Moses, Moses. And he said, Here am I. 5 And he said, Draw not nigh hither: put off thy shoes from off thy feet, for the place whereon thou standest is holy ground.