"Crazy on a Ship of Fools"
Genesis 32:22-31
Mark 8:34-38
By Rev. Ken Sauer, Pastor of Grace UMC, Soddy Daisy, TN
I remember reading the morning paper way back in June of 1994.
The lead story was about the murder of O.J. Simpson’s wife…which had happened the day before.
This was the first I had heard of O.J. Simpson in a long time.
I remembered, as a young kid, watching him in those Hertz commercials—running through the airport and hurdling people and baggage in order to get “somewhere?”
I remembered his smiling face, and his outgoing personality.
I vaguely remembered watching him play for the San Francisco 49ers…but that was long after his hey-day.
And I knew he had been in some movies I’d seen…although I couldn’t name them.
Other than that, I had a very good impression of the man.
Everybody seemed to have a good impression of the smiling Simpson.
On the day I read about his wife’s murder in the newspaper, it never even occurred to me that he could be the killer.
He just didn’t look the part.
He was too nice a guy.
He seemed to have everything too “together” for anything like that…
…so it didn’t even cross my mind.
As far as I knew, he wasn’t even a suspect as of then.
Since then, O.J. has gotten into all kinds of trouble, and the public perception of him is radically different.
O.J. seemed to have it all together…on the outside…
…whatever has been going on—on the inside of this person…
…appears to be a different story.
In a similar vein, Jacob was a man who, outwardly, appeared to have it all together.
But there were some skeletons in his closet.
Jacob had fled from his home after stealing his brother Esau’s birthright and blessing.
He had gotten a safe distance away and had stayed away for a long time.
He must have tried to forget about Esau, or at any rate to act as if Esau had not vowed to kill him.
Now, after many years, Jacob was coming back home with wives, children, servants.
Outwardly Jacob was a very prosperous man, but inwardly he was a terribly troubled soul.
Soon he would meet up, again, with his brother Esau.
How many of us appear to have it all together on the outside—but inside we are filled with anxiety, guilt, and fear?
Maybe we are terribly unhappy with our lives.
Maybe we are afraid we will meet a horrible end—due to the many horrible deeds we have done.
Maybe we are doing a bit of wrestling with God.
I remember, one time in college when I was wrestling with God.
I was feeling particularly bad.
I felt that I was too sinful…
…I felt that I was too lost in order to be loved and accepted by God.
As I was wrestling with these thoughts I walked into the campus record store and over the speakers in the store was playing the Billy Joel song: “I Love You Just the Way You Are.”
At that moment I felt that God was speaking to me through the lyrics of that song.
It was as if God was saying, “Ken, I created you. I know what you are made of. I also know all the things you are battling with.
But don’t fret.
I love you just the way you are…sins and all!
Get over yourself, and give all your worries over to me.
Give me all your sins and all your temptations, and allow my blood to wash away your guilt and your shame.
I have great plans for you!
Don’t beat yourself up.
I love you just the way you are, and we’ve got a long journey ahead, you and I.”
Well, that day, I believed God and began the process of healing.
Do you feel as if you are too sinful, too guilty, too lost in order for God to love you and forgive you?
Or what about your family members, your co-workers, your classmates, your neighbors?
Do they feel this way about themselves?
This is the way Jacob felt.
Genesis Chapter 32:1-21, gives us a picture of a very worried Jacob.
He knew he had wronged his brother, so he feared for his life and for the life of his family.
Little did Jacob know that Esau had not held a grudge against him at all.
He had not forgotten what Jacob had done to him, but he had stopped bothering himself about it.
As Chapter 33 tells us, Esau would meet Jacob with the generosity of a big man who lets bygones be bygones.
But not only did Jacob not know this would happen…
…what he thought he knew was the exact opposite of the truth.
Jacob thought Esau would try and kill him.
Therefore Jacob plans how he can prevent trouble with Esau.
He will send Esau an ingratiating message.
He will pretend to trust what he doesn’t really dare believe “that I may find favor in your eyes.”
Jacob waits for his messengers to come back, and when they do, he is panic-stricken…
…because they tell him that Esau is not just coming by himself, but with four hundred men, and in Jacob’s imagination they all had swords in their hands!!!
So desperately, Jacob divides his convoy into two groups, with one contingent on the front lines.
His wives, children and flocks stay back with him.
If the first line were attacked, Jacob may be able to escape with his family.
Meanwhile, Esau had no plan to attack anybody.
It never even occurred to Jacob that his brother Esau was a man of grace and forgiveness…and that he loved Jacob despite everything.
How many of us know for a fact that Almighty God is the God of Grace and Forgiveness, and that God loves each and every one of us despite everything?
“God so loved the world…”
As Proverbs 28:1 tells us: “The wicked man flees though no one pursues…”
Jacob had a guilty conscience, and knew he deserved retribution…
…therefore he was overcome with paranoia.
How many of us live with a guilty conscience, and therefore live life on the run from persons who we think are out to get us—but in reality, are not?
How many of us have trouble looking others in the eyes because we are afraid they will be able to see what we are hiding or hiding from?
And the irony is that these anxieties, these nightmares, these things which can make the living of our days nearly intolerable are truly unnecessary.
No one is out to get us.
No one is trying to figure us out.
And God is big enough to handle and wipe clean any and all things which cause us to feel guilty.
Every human being is in the same boat.
Robert Plant has a song in which he sings: “I’m crazy on a ship of fools.”
I’m not sure what he means by that, but there can be no doubt that the ship upon which we ride is filled with passengers.
What that song means to me is, we are crazy, when, knowing the truth of salvation and forgiveness and new life through Jesus Christ…
…we forsake the kingdom and continue to ride along as if we are foolish…
…in order to continue in our sins, and thus in our misery.
Are any of us doing that?
Are any of us forsaking the peace…forfeiting the peace of Christ for the so-called pleasures of the world…
…are we headed toward destruction…
…and know it…
…and know how to be rescued…
…but have decided to sink with the ship despite it all?
What I’m trying to say is: We are all sinners and fall short of God’s glory!!!!
Therefore, let’s acknowledge this, get over ourselves, embrace God’s love and forgiveness through Jesus Christ, and become instruments of God’s Kingdom!!!
There is no need to be paranoid!!!
God is not out to get us.
It’s really quite the opposite …God is out to save and forgive us!!!
Back to Jacob.
Jacob decides to send gifts to try and pacify his brother.
We are told that “Jacob’s gifts went on ahead of him, but Jacob spent the night in the camp.”
And “that night Jacob got up and took his two wives, his two maidservants and his eleven sons and crossed the ford of the Jabbock. After he had sent them across the stream, he sent over all his possessions. So Jacob was left alone, and a man wrestled with him till daybreak.”
Some have referred to this as Jacob’s “dark night of the soul.”
His past was catching up with him.
He was about to face some consequences for what he had done and who he had been—a deceiver all his life.
His past, his conscience, and his fears were battling within him.
And Jacob was alone, or so he thought, but none of us are ever really alone, are we?
God was there.
And without any other human to help him, without any props of his former confidence or conceit, Jacob had come to the point that everyone who has tried too long to avoid the truth must come to…
…a reckoning with God.
Jacob could ignore this prospect in the busy daytime…
…just as we are often able to ignore God as we busy ourselves with our professions, school, friendships, family and other urgent matters.
It is a fact that tight schedules damage our physical health, bring on a much higher rate of psychiatric problems, and are very detrimental to our spiritual relationship with God.
When Jacob puts aside business for solitude, he opens space for himself as well as for God; God comes to him.
We too, need to remember to take time out of our busy schedules for ourselves—and for God.
An early morning walk can do great things for the soul.
Daily devotions can change the entire day.
Coming to worship on Sunday morning can change the entire week!!!
So, Jacob spent the night wrestling with himself and wrestling with God.
Have you ever wrestled with God over something?
Maybe it was a passage of Scripture.
Perhaps you were wrestling over what God wants you to do with your life…
…perhaps, some of us here this morning are still wrestling with God…
…will we give up trying to make it in this world on our own and finally hand our lives over to Christ or continue as one who is “Crazy on a Ship of Fools?”
When the “stranger in the night” touched the socket of Jacob’s hip, Jacob was disabled and would have to limp from that time forward.
Jacob was in the grip of a power that his self-assurance couldn’t match, and Jacob knew he could never walk in lofty arrogance again.
Often the barrier that gets in the way of forgiveness, is our inability to receive the forgiveness.
Jacob had to be humbled before he could be made clean, and the wrestling match by the Jabbok would be the beginning of that.
He had to admit deep down that he did not deserve anything, and he had to get rid of the pride that caused him to think he could find peace by working things out on his own.
And that’s the only way he would ever be able to really believe that his relationship with Esau and with God had truly been restored!!!
That’s the only way peace could enter his life, throwing anxiety, fear and guilt aside.
And a personal relationship with Jesus Christ is the only way we can find peace, allowing Christ to take away our anxiety, our fears, our guilt our sin!!!
Jacob held onto God that night by the river.
When we are forced to wrestle with a moral reality and its consequences, we may try to get rid of God as quickly as possible, but not so with Jacob.
Some folks try and ignore their sins, the cowardly try to evade their consequences…
…the saved hold onto God, hurt and humiliated though they may be, and repent—daring to believe that their great desire to be saved will prevail!!!
Are we holding on to God?
Are we willing to repent?
Do we dare believe that the Risen Christ is more than willing and able to save and forgive even us, even us?
