What Am I Going To Do While I Am Where I Am. "Now What"

We are quoted the scripture in Romans 8:28 so much that before a person can even form the word in their mouth we say it for them “All things work to the good of them that love the Lord and are called according to His purpose”. We are told to have faith like Job (or Job it out), but we fail to understand something that Job represents a level of spiritualality that we all desire to be at, but have not yet apprehended. To be able to say “Though He slay me yet will I trust Him” is a level that all Saved, Sanctified, Holy Ghost filled folks desire to be at, but in actuallality are at the level spiritually as Job’s wife and say “why not curse God and die”. Why because we don’t like to suffer. We know the scripture says “Forasmuch then as Christ hath suffered for us in the flesh, arm yourselves likewise with the same mind: for he that hath suffered in the flesh hath ceased from sin”, but we don’t like to suffer. So therefore, you can’t tell me that in this Christian walk that at some point when all it seemed like is that you were going through, rather physically, financially, spiritually, mentally, emotionally, relationally, that at some point you didn’t say Lord either deliver me or take me out of here because you are tired of going through and the reason you are tired is because you have not yet apprehended that which God has promised you. Paul said “I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith:”; however, before he was able to say that he asked God 3 times to remove the thorn in his flesh, the messenger of satan to buffet him.

I don’t feel so bad about questioning God, when I couldn’t understand why I lost my job, all I do is go to church, study God’s word, preach God’s word, teach God’s word, pray, fast I was doing everything that I was supposed to do as a man of God and in my mind I could think of many people that should have been in this place instead of me, who never want to go to church, who never pick up a Bible or own a Bible, that only ask for someone to pray for them when something is wrong, but will not pray themselves, who are only C-M-E Christians, that means they go to church on Christmas, Mother’s Day, and Easter only. I couldn’t understand it I preached a message at Bishop Steele’s and the title was “I’m still alive” God blessed in that message in that message I said even if you lose your job as long as you have breath in your body you should give God the praise, that was about 4 years ago I am once again unemployed not of my own doing, but everytime a job seems like it may work out something happens. One job was a division of Enron, you know what happened there, the biggest scandle in history, the other was Kenworth if you don’t sale trucks theres not much since in building trucks and now this one which was seasonal any way

If we are truthful with ourselves, there are times that we even get angry with God and say now Lord I am trying to do your will and it seems to me that the folk that aren’t even thinking about you seems like they should be the ones running to the unemployment office, they should be the ones who’s children are in trouble, they should be the ones that have problems making ends meet, they should be the ones having to run to the emergency room, one writer said my foot almost slipped, when I look at the wicked, even though I know I should not fret myself of evil doers, but when you look at the wicked and you see that you are still driving that rusted out yugo and driving it giving God the glory on your way to church and your neighbor just bought a brand new Mercedes and is not even thinking about going to any church and you want to say you didn’t give that a thought when it came to your mind.