Why do you do what you do? Why do you want something? Why do you want it so badly? Can you let it go? Do you want something simply for yourself? BTW, it is real easy to deceive yourself into believing that you something for others but in reality it is a selfish ambition. I told people before how as a child I prayed for specific sports teams to win believing that I was praying for them but deep down inside, I was praying so I could gloat and be proud